Monday, June 29, 2009
I want to be wise. The Bible says if you want wisdom ask the Lord for wisdom. So I ask but I sometimes feel like I ask because I know that wisdom is something I should want but I think I'm fearful that if I get wisdom, what will I be expected to so with it. It frightens me that wisdom given by the Lord is so power and I know I'll be expected to do great things with it for the kingdom but sometime...ok...maybe most of the time I just want to sit in my little christian cubby and soak up the blessings and spend my time worshipping and learning.
I understand that if you fear something your fears can be quieted by learning so that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to research about wisdom and what God expects us to do with it. Do you think that might be too big of a task for a newbie like me?
Friday, June 26, 2009
Any message about the assurance of salvation I listen to very carefully.
I used to believe that the reason I examine my relationship with Christ so frequently is because I am not sure of my salvation. However, as I read my Bible I've learned that 2 Corinthians 13:5 tells us " Examine yourselves to see if your faith is genuine. Test yourselves. Surely you know that Jesus Christ is among you[a]; if not, you have failed the test of genuine faith. " (NLT)
So I look for evidence in my life that I am a disciple.
John 8:31-32 31 Then Jesus said to those Jews who believed Him, “If you abide in My word, you are My disciples indeed. 32 And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” [emphasis mine]
- You are saved if you believe in Jesus and all that he is. - Recognize that Jesus is the only way to Salvation. Believe that he is the Son of God and he died for our sins, was buried and resurrected.
- You are saved if you abide in Jesus' words - develop a desire to read and understand the Bible.
- You are saved if you know the truth. Knowing the truth makes us live for and serve Christ. Knowing the truth changes a true Christian. More confident in God. More loving. More humble.
- You are saved when you are free. Free from sin.
So the next question after "Are you saved?" is "How do you know?"
If I examine the evidence in my life I realize that I am not the person I once was. I want to do the right thing although I might not always do the right thing.
I must admit that I don't do things like calling in sick when I'm not all that sick (lying) or take an extra newspaper from the newspaper dispenser (stealing) anymore. Little changes like that in my opinion, add up to great changes in a person that others notice.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
- I still can't find some books in my Bible without looking in the table of contents
- I get a lump in my throat every time I say "Yes, I'm a Christian."
- I struggle with prayer, my walk, talk and work for Christ
- I'm still so enjoying the milk of the word and want to be fed daily. I struggle with how to feed myself and what to feed myself
But I'm growing just like you're growing in the Lord. That's what's important!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
My mom, in SC and younger brother, in Texas, who were already believers were very happy that I had come into the family of God but at home, I am the only believer and I knew what a challenge that would be in my life. Actually that challenge was the thing that kept me from coming to the Lord years ago when I first heard his voice calling me. So what changed you might wonder....
About 3 years ago my mother gave my son a few books that were from the Left Behind: The Kids series by Tim Lahaye and Jerry B Jenkins. I discovered soon after that there were books for adults too and I read the entire series. While I read I admired those tribulation saints who were giving it all for Christ in the most terrible of circumstances but realized I did not want to be a tribulation saint. I asked a friend at work where she went to church and she invited me and I started going to church.
I liked the church. Everyone seemed so sincere and the messages on Sunday morning seemed applicable to my life. It didn't hurt that they had a very active youth program either. At the time I believed every person in service was a believer and I was so afraid that it would be found out that I was not. Well in childhood I had been to church A LOT. I knew all the catchphrases and idioms. I could talk church with the best. I knew all the songs and even had verses highlighted in my bible.
At some point I felt the love of God touch my heart or rather speak to my mind and I didn't want to be a pretender any longer.
One Sunday after service I asked to speak to someone and I told her how I'd done many alter calls and had several "conversions" but none of them had really took. I was ready for a real conversion.
Since my conversion I've been collecting books and other resources to help me grow. Every once in a while something I've been studying clicks and I get it and I'm so excited I want to share it with other newbies. I figure we can all learn together.